I GOT HUSTLE IN ME...

Okay so this is how I feel today... A lot of things have been ringing in my mind and it's about time for me to get back on my grind...
Hus.tle (hus'el) 1. to push about; jostle 2. to force in a rough, hurried manner- vi. 1. to move hurriedly 2.[Inf.] to work energetically 3.[SLANG] TO OBTAIN MONEY AGGRESSIVELY or dishonestly- HUS'TLER n.

Spaceship on the BRAIN!

Okay... So I have no idea why this song is on my mind, but it has been for about 3 days now... So when ever there is a song in my head I'm going to post it...

A Father's Longing to Love His Daughter.

When your mother gave birth to you I didn't know what to think. I had never wanted children before, and even though you have her skin tone I look at myself when I look at you. I named you after the heavens you came from Nevaeh. Your mother wished to put me in a situation that I never thought she would. I don't hate her, but as I work daily to make a future not only that you and your mother can live, you more so, but that we all may be comfortable in our living. Your mom hates me because I didn't want to be with her, and now is penalizing me for what I say is or would be the differences between us. I'm a very spiritual being and your mother is a self-righteous, holier than though, religious person. She wished to marry me and I didn't want to be bothered her period, because she made everything about her. She used you to try to reel me in using you as bait, because she knew even though I never wanted any children, I LOVED, and LOVE you more than I love myself. I would do just about anything to be near you. I just wouldn't be with your mom. I do appreciate her for all that's she done, out of what she said has been the love she has for me... And all the while I think to myself why can't we love You as our daughter and to do what we can for you putting our differences aside. NO... A friend to me is not what she signed up for she says, and that if I won't be with her then it won't be anything. She hates me Vaeh. I don't hate her, I just hate the things she does to keep you out of my life. She told me that I would be your step father just because I told her no. STEP FATHER to a child of my own. My only child. The Real LOVE OF MY LIFE. I miss you. I long to be near you, to hold you, to kiss you on your forehead. Me as your father, you as my daughter; I LONG TO LOVE YOU!

I'm New To This!

Well this is my first blog and I'm kinda excited about it... I'll be using my blog to show you my mindset through poetry usually but sometimes just thoughts to be put out there. Hope you enjoy my world... And I say to all that will follow me in my world (mindset) Welcome.