A Father's Longing to Love His Daughter.

When your mother gave birth to you I didn't know what to think. I had never wanted children before, and even though you have her skin tone I look at myself when I look at you. I named you after the heavens you came from Nevaeh. Your mother wished to put me in a situation that I never thought she would. I don't hate her, but as I work daily to make a future not only that you and your mother can live, you more so, but that we all may be comfortable in our living. Your mom hates me because I didn't want to be with her, and now is penalizing me for what I say is or would be the differences between us. I'm a very spiritual being and your mother is a self-righteous, holier than though, religious person. She wished to marry me and I didn't want to be bothered her period, because she made everything about her. She used you to try to reel me in using you as bait, because she knew even though I never wanted any children, I LOVED, and LOVE you more than I love myself. I would do just about anything to be near you. I just wouldn't be with your mom. I do appreciate her for all that's she done, out of what she said has been the love she has for me... And all the while I think to myself why can't we love You as our daughter and to do what we can for you putting our differences aside. NO... A friend to me is not what she signed up for she says, and that if I won't be with her then it won't be anything. She hates me Vaeh. I don't hate her, I just hate the things she does to keep you out of my life. She told me that I would be your step father just because I told her no. STEP FATHER to a child of my own. My only child. The Real LOVE OF MY LIFE. I miss you. I long to be near you, to hold you, to kiss you on your forehead. Me as your father, you as my daughter; I LONG TO LOVE YOU!